My husband cut some brush a few weeks ago behind the house. There is one patch that he cut that I can see from my kitchen window. There was one “tree” that he cut that remained standing- leaning against the others that surround it. The first few days it didn’t look any different than the others. The leaves were still green, the squirrels still ran across its branches. But soon, I could see the leaves starting to brown. Then they started to fall. The tree continued to lean a little bit more each day. The squirrels were seeming to understand its weakness. To run across its branches could mean that they may not hold them, or in an instant it could come crashing down and take the squirrel with it.
Watching this tree wither as it had become disconnected from its source of life, it reminded me of myself. How many times have I allowed other things to get in the way and disconnect me from the Source of my life? Sometimes it takes time to realize that I am getting dry and dying. I think, oh, its only been a few days. I have had this or that to take care of. Whatever the distraction, if I am not connected to God, I am dying. I need Him. Everyday. Once the connection is interrupted, the days quickly slip into weeks, then months. Then to take time to meet with the Lord seems like such a burden. I am convinced that I don’t have the time. And soon my spirit withers. While I was being held up by those around me, soon I will become a burden and then a danger to them. I become overtaken with fear and anxiety. I have nowhere to go for strength and guidance. No one to hold me up in the hard times. Suddenly I feel crushed and helpless.
But thank God that He will meet me when I finally seek His face! When I come to my senses and realize that without Him I am nothing. When I ask Him to forgive me for putting all these things first, He will forgive me. He will receive me. He will revive me! I just need to call His name! Return to my Source and live!